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playing deadly premonition is intense, less because of the horror and more because of the vast open worldness of it all. knowing that you can run out of gas in the middle of nowhere and how huge the map is... it's very intimidating. getting lost in the vast virtual wilderness kicks my flight or flight in and i have to constantly check just how much gas i have...
overall, it's a really fun game that i'm enjoying. minus the boss fights, those are absolute shit so far. dying and them having to remember a sequence of buttons each time does not make a boss fight, it just makes an incredibly frustrating way to keep dying until you remember each one that killed you before. they're lucky i love the tension and twin peaks references.
i have, not surprisingly, been wanting to play MGS2 lately especially with what i know now. it's been 5 years too long since my last replay and watching the scene with the A.I.s yesterday really made me remember just how genius the game is and what the intention is with the message.
these past two weeks i was forced into slowing down which meant a lot of great research into how i was to present my work, how i want to write about it, what i want to write, etc. i've got special journals dedicated to these things that i can't wait to continuously pour over and add to while working on my own practice, while finding niche places where my tastes and my skills lie. it feels intimidating at times, even when i know it's where i fit best, and the need for small art has made a huge resurgence with the exhaustion of gloss and sharp edges and toned bodies that we're met with every day. it gets to be that space of creation where i no longer think, is this what people want? but this is what i want, i want to create this, i want to showcase this, this is how i share my vulnerability and it is for everyone and no one.
i want to have my first real mini-showing once COVID is gone, i have enough now that i can showcase more than just one or two things and i'm so ready for it! i've been an observer, a curator - only the transformer once or twice and i'm excited to step into that role even more, especially with the renewed vigor i've found in being an artist full time. this is all kinda vague but i'm really shy with this stuff haha, it's a growing process! i've had a good group of artists surrounding me the past few years who have been encouraging me so it's great motivation and encouragement to really get out there...
next week, i'm gonna add my videos on my website because i am very proud of those lol and maybe figure out what to do with this journal as a part of an art piece too like i have done with my deadjournal...
overall, it's a really fun game that i'm enjoying. minus the boss fights, those are absolute shit so far. dying and them having to remember a sequence of buttons each time does not make a boss fight, it just makes an incredibly frustrating way to keep dying until you remember each one that killed you before. they're lucky i love the tension and twin peaks references.
i have, not surprisingly, been wanting to play MGS2 lately especially with what i know now. it's been 5 years too long since my last replay and watching the scene with the A.I.s yesterday really made me remember just how genius the game is and what the intention is with the message.
these past two weeks i was forced into slowing down which meant a lot of great research into how i was to present my work, how i want to write about it, what i want to write, etc. i've got special journals dedicated to these things that i can't wait to continuously pour over and add to while working on my own practice, while finding niche places where my tastes and my skills lie. it feels intimidating at times, even when i know it's where i fit best, and the need for small art has made a huge resurgence with the exhaustion of gloss and sharp edges and toned bodies that we're met with every day. it gets to be that space of creation where i no longer think, is this what people want? but this is what i want, i want to create this, i want to showcase this, this is how i share my vulnerability and it is for everyone and no one.
i want to have my first real mini-showing once COVID is gone, i have enough now that i can showcase more than just one or two things and i'm so ready for it! i've been an observer, a curator - only the transformer once or twice and i'm excited to step into that role even more, especially with the renewed vigor i've found in being an artist full time. this is all kinda vague but i'm really shy with this stuff haha, it's a growing process! i've had a good group of artists surrounding me the past few years who have been encouraging me so it's great motivation and encouragement to really get out there...
next week, i'm gonna add my videos on my website because i am very proud of those lol and maybe figure out what to do with this journal as a part of an art piece too like i have done with my deadjournal...